Demolition, Ryan Adams’ collection of outtakes from earlier albums, is as solid as many artists’ top tier work. Today’s track is a particular standout, a song about a man tentatively moving on after a failed relationship (he personifies the women as cities in these lyrics).
This is the second Ryan Adams song to pop up on Random Weekends since he was exposed as an alleged predator and harasser who derailed the careers of many female artists. It’s hard not to at least mention that fact, even as I appreciate his work.
What I can do is offer up a link to the latest from Adams’ ex-wife Mandy Moore. She says that during their marriage he stifled her career throughout her 20s by taking over her entire creative process and shutting other music professionals out of her life.
She went on to find success as an actress on the hit show This is Us, and she just released her first song in ages. It’s called ‘When I Wasn’t Watching’ and appears to address her relationship with Adams.
You’ll never guess
You know the girl you said I’d meet someday?
Well I got something to confess
She picked me up on Friday
Asked me if she reminded me of you
I just laughed and lit a cigarette
Said, “That’s impossible to do.”
Life’s gotten simple since
And it fluctuates so much
Happy, and sad, and back again
I’m not cryin’ now too much
I think about you all the time
It’s strange and hard to deal
I think about you lyin’ there
And those blankets lie so still
Nothing breathes here in the cold
Nothing moves or even smiles
I’ve been thinking some of suicide
But there’s bars out here for miles
I’m sorry about the every kiss
Every kiss you wasted bad
I think the thing you said was true;
I’m gonna die alone and sad
The wind’s feelin’ real these days
And baby, it hurts me some
I never thought I’d feel so blue
New York City, you’re almost gone
I think that I’ve fallen out of love
I think I’ve fallen out of love
I think, I’ve fallen out of love, with you