Two years after the massive success of I Do Not Want What I Haven’t Got, Sinéad O’Connor blew up her career in spectacular fashion.
Critics and audiences were perplexed by her third album, 1992’s Am I Not Your Girl?, a collection of cover versions of standards. This is the sort of album artists usually put out deep into their careers, often to satisfy a contractual obligation. It’s certainly not what you expect from the follow-up to a ground-breaking and star-making release.
The real trouble, though, was prompted by O’Connor’s actions outside of the recording studio.
A couple of years earlier, O’Connor refused to perform a show at the Garden State Arts Center in New Jersey after she learned the national anthem would be played prior to her appearance. The decision was in keeping with a rule she followed for any country’s anthem but it predictably stirred up ample controversy in the States. The following night, Frank Sinatra played the venue and said he’d like to “kick her in the ass.”
The much bigger scandal came in October of 1992, when O’Connor used an appearance on Saturday Night Live to protest child sex abuse by the Catholic Church, tearing up a picture of Pope John Paul II and encouraging viewers to “fight the real enemy.”
I can only imagine the firestorm this would have created in the age of social media. Even in 1992, it became national news. Angry viewers called NBC to complain, and O’Connor was widely ridiculed and attacked by political commentators and fellow artists. Joe Pesci and Madonna used SNL appearances later that season to criticize her.
Two weeks after the incident, O’Connor performed at a Bob Dylan tribute concert and was booed by the audience (kudos to Kris Kristofferson for embracing her onstage as she soaked in the abuse and applauding her “courage and integrity”).
Much of the reaction to O’Connor’s death last week centered on the fact that, whatever you think of her methods, she was vindicated by the uncovering in subsequent years of the horrific and wide-ranging nature of the Catholic Church’s abuses. If only people had cared more about putting an end to those atrocities than attacking a brave young woman for speaking out about them.
Needless to say, none of this controversy helped Am I Not Your Girl? find an audience. It’s a perfectly fine album, not very adventurous in its approach but featuring typically lovely vocals. It does have one standout moment in O’Connor’s rendition of ‘Don’t Cry For Me Argentina.’ This performance gripped me at the time and still does.
It won’t be easy
You’ll think it strange
When I try to explain how I feel
That I still need your love
After all that I’ve done
You won’t believe me
All you will see is a girl
You once knew
Although she’s dressed up
To the nines
At sixes and sevens with you
[Verse 2]
I had to let it happen
I had to change
Couldn’t stay all my life
Down at heel
Looking out of the window
Staying out of the sun
So I chose freedom
Running around trying
Everything new
But nothing impressed me at all
I never expected it to
[Chorus]
Don’t cry for me Argentina
The truth is I never left you
All through my wild days
My mad existence
I kept my promise
Don’t keep your distance
[Verse 3]
And as for fortune
And as for fame
I never invited them in
Though it seemed to the world
They were all I desired
They are illusions
They are not the solutions
They promised to be
The answer was here all the time
I love you and hope you love me
[Instrumental Chorus]
[Bridge]
Have I said too much?
There’s nothing more
I can think of to say to you
But all you have to do is
Look at me
To know that every word is true
[Instrumental Chorus]
[Outro]
I kept my promise
Don’t keep your distance
Ah, I remember those controversies in 1992 well, but less so this covers album. Thank you for featuring such a beautiful version of one of my favorite Broadway songs.
I too love this song and this is a beautiful rendition ❤️